To my Moe

To my Moe
I remember i once wake up in the middle of the night and i kept on wondering where's the man that Ive been asking for? Life was never easy back than. Flashbacks of the past kept on coming back as i went back to sleep with nothing but hate to my body. i loathe my self, Moe. I do. I cannot eat, take a bath or even watch youtube video without remembering that ive sinned so much in my past life. Its so bad that i have to click pause sometime when im watching youtube videos and then you came. you came into my life when i have nothing to give. i still remember looking at your face, and i said ' oh my god, how beautiful is this man'. i remember walking with you for the first time. at first, it was awkward but then we got so much comfortable with each other that its hard not to talk. and from that day, ' Begin Again' sounds logical and makes sense. Things just got better. you showed me more in 8 months than ive ever seen in my whole 18 years living. i love how you love your family so much. seeing you being so nice with amad, anis , mia and ecah makes me feel like you re the greatest human being alive. i love how you, my dear, thinks im beautiful. i know im not enough. the way i walk is weird, my teeth, my pimpled face, my hair and etc are not as beautiful as others but you always see good in me. i love how you hold my hand as mine is magnated to yours. i love how you look at me from the mirror of your bike and i can see sparks in your eyes. i love how your arms feel around my waist as you slowly kiss my cheeks and whispers your love. i love how you look at me and say that you love me. i love listening to your voice. i love you safe i am when im withyou. i love our fights but what i love the most about our fights are at the fact that we will never break up. i love how you choose food based on what i like. i love how you are a day dreamer and i love at the fact that i think you're smart. i love how you love my friends and always wanna learn about them a lot. i love how you hug me as if every inches of your muscles need me to grow. i love your warm lips touching mine and we ran out of breathe to give. i love how you never make me mad as you kiss me. i love you

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i wanted to say thank you for everything
thank you for accepting
i remember really clearly when i first met you
you came to me and from that day; life is all about you

i used to wonder
how it feels like to be in love again
how it feels like to miss someone so much again -it hurts listening to happy songs
i thought i will never love again
but when we are not talking
all i feel is
blue

a sad kind of blue
not the kind of blue that makes your heart as wide as the ocean
but the kind of blue where
i sink to the bottom looking at it

i wonder where the future takes us, F
i really do

and i hope, its not a sad 
kind of view

1/8/2017